bed time loneliness

you gave me,
the freshest of your breath,
the whitest of your bread,
and the purest wines of red;

and now you leave me,
all alone in this bed,
too young to be dead...

tenderness

If you're feeling cold,
I will hold you,
I will warm you,
I will never let you feel alone.
When you're home,
I'll be at home,
to kiss you like your mom.

When you're feeling hurt,
I will hear you,
I will heal you,
And there'll always be some scars to mend.
When you're down,
I'll be your clown,
a nice smile to put on...

one night stand

Don't see me, forget me,

Don't know about me!

Leave the love inside.

We can't stay friends,

After staying up all night.

so hear me and please forget it all!

don't

I'm totally mad, i'm getting insane, just because of you. And i can't understand what you want from me. All i want is a smile, so i'm keen to see your teeth.

Don't let me trust, don't cheat.

Don't make me drown in your dream.

Don't wake, don't make me up.

Don't let this nice dream stop.

I'm bound to your love. Can't find my way out.Thinking about you all night leads the trouble in mind. Whenever i call for past, i cry hard, i must.

don't wake, don't make me up.

don't let this nice dream stop.

why?

I just wanted to say "no", but i couldn't. Now i'm asking you: Why did you push me too into your own hell? Why did you want me to suffer?

bosom friends

I need somewhere to hide,

and someone to confide.

I don't know where to ride

My dull weather night...

feeling stuck?

try to get out your inner self. you're too stressed, you're too weak.everyday of week, getting some more harder,getting boring, getting long, and getting stiffling,but you can't get out. the case is just so bitter.do you have another way to go?

love in use

You want or you don't.
They call it the beginning of the end.
That's the point to come
When i touch your hand.
No matter how much you refuse,
The last thing we abuse
Is love in use.

lost venue

Come! My wasted ritual.The love individual.My honey bee.The non-payable fee.Come back to your self, whatever you be.Come back and believe the thing that makes you relieve.Plant all your inner farms, and let them grow green.And remember" you and i" mean nothing under that tree of bean.

god damn!

YOU! rat child! evil breed! the beast that hell feed! the lowest rate! unwanted sibling of fate! get out! get out my way! you deserve nothing well! there ain't nothing to tell! stay away from me! go down! back down to hell!

radioactive relations

we had a fine radiation between, but our communication had lead ends...

ı m 22 now. last day is my birthday... i havent got anything...love, myself, memory and friend..i m lonely so i stand strong.thanks good life!

getting used

throw me a light one of your memories untold.leave yourself to another one, then leave me grow cold.please forget all of them.there is a life to live along.no gain without any pain, get it all and stand strong.( if you can )

solitary movements

at an hour of the night,
my back against the sun.
where is the sun?
has it run
away?
and i can't tell you some.
my cries ain't no fun,
so i wait for salvation to come
in vain.
i feel lonely
in a chamber of troubles,
speaking with bubbles
of blank.
i feel lonely
in this tiring road lane,
with all the shame
and all that pain,
and i don't need somebody
to thank..

no title.

you can't lose what you haven't got.

get out of my life

you left me numb, and you left me humble. you left me unsafe and that's why i tremble.I'm getting over it.i mean anymore i am no sick.anyway it's in vain to cry for a kick.you were my everything and you were my lady. but after all we had, my future seems some shady.and from now on, i won't waste my time for a cry.please don't hang over me, so let me say goodbye....

the end of love

we seperate our way, it is time to disappear.We've turned out to be completely strangers.There's nothing easy to say, no nice words to hear.everything honey, we must forget all the things we've had here.all that love we had day and night and night and day.We've turned out to be completely strangers, so we seperate our way, day and night and night and day...

on racism of jesus

what if jesus was black? i mean if jesus had been black, would black people do the same thıngs that whıte ones do to them? would the whıte be slaves in the past?would they be exposed to the same kınds of racist tortures? ı wonder a lot...

trial inside

well, i accept that i have been sent to this shitty place for a specific reason just lıke everyone. however, i really wonder why my makers can not see me. is it the only way, kneeling and saying a prayer, to make them hear you. anyway, i don't feel confused, but i feel myself lacking something to trust. i don't need to believe anything. i just want to know every little thing. i lack context.can you hear me, my dear maker? please reply me. i am waiting for you in my lıttle room next to the mash potatoes. why aren't you here when i most need you next to me? do i have to feel alone all the time? i really wonder....

the crooked state of mine

sometimes i need to be alone wıth you and to feel your warm secure touch. ı want to cry on your shoulder. ı want to hug as ı dıd ın my older days. however ı know that you, my beloved dad, are far away. too far away...

here ı am!

hi to all my community! workıng ın a hot country really tıres people sometımes, you know:) and ı am fed up wıth being tıred of being tıred:( hope to talk to you sooner. ı kıss you all!

I have some nice bunch of friends everywhere:):)

ı really have good tıme wıth them:) thanks a lot to all my frıends.:)

I love you all!

ATTENTİON!!! :)

hi to all my community mates! actually i hoped that you all can write something on this blog.you can write, i know:) please don't hesitate:) take care. I love you all.

help needed!

Ohh my dear friend!
I lack context, and i lack hope to have a context.Please find me a place to have my own self, and inner comfort.

famıly free

ı just thought to erase myself from my famıly tree. However ı don't know if this wıll set me free...

smile!!!

I never smile while crying, never die of laughing... all my friends, they all laugh at their troubles. ı never smile while crying, never ever...

good lover down there...

I have never had some time to share with you.And i never had some time spared.But i am looking forward to the day to come, with flowers in my hand, and a fast beat in my heart.
I am collecting the best emotions for you.the day will come and i will drop them on you...

happy birthday!!!

ohh, happy birthday to me! myself! And i'm sending you worms with my purest intentions.....

hey!

Sometimes i need to hear someone talking to me from very inner core of my own self.
But what if i could hear my heart accusing me for taking part of the machine?

Denize Maya

Bunca zaman senin için verdiğim onca çaba, sadece boş bir uğraş, denize maya...

soya fasulyesi ve yanık izleri...

Nasıl yenir bu kadar yanmıs bir soya fasulyesi derken ikinci kez dibi tutan sütün altını kapatmayı unutan ev kadınları var mı hiç?
uykum vardı sabah, çok uyumak isteği içindeyken işe başlamak için çok geç kalmış olduğumu farkeder gibi bir halim yoktu tabi. Sadece geç kalmıştım aslında.Ve hala aramadıklarına göre, neden değiller benim yokluğumun farkında?